And Just Like That...


And just like that...I was lying in bed with tears in my eyes. Not something new to me and neither was the pain. I was wishing the world has more grace for black women. Wishing that we could find peace and joy in the simplicity of just being.

The next day I'm sitting in therapy, my therapist says,
"You can't change the past. You can only change your reaction to it."

That's what we've been working on for 2 years now. I guess I came in thinking therapy would make me the happy-go-lucky person I used to be before I ever experienced trauma. Nope, it just makes you capable of whatever you decide to be.

I kept telling myself, "you're doing too much, slow down and breathe." I promised myself and my therapist that I would slow down. It's exhausting trying to change the world and save yourself at the same time. I felt so defeated and honestly, it's no one's fault but my own. I still have a lot to learn about myself.


So until next time, wish me luck!

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This blog is NOT geared toward sexual orientation or gender classification. This blog is based solely on the blog authors experience and research. This blog is geared toward promoting a mixture of masculine and feminine attire and with an integrated genderless lifestyle.

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